After Mara was born, I just knew that working full time was not what I wanted for my family at this precious stage. I am grateful that my employer was supportive of my request to switch to part time and feel so thankful that I am able to continue with the job I love and still be home with my kids two days a week. It’s close to a perfect situation for me.
But it’s still really hard. It’s hard to leave them when I go to work… it’s hard to leave my work when I go home… and on days like today it’s hard just making it through the morning with a disobedient two-year-old.
If you want to drive yourself to the border of crazytown, try getting a toddler who doesn’t want to listen/obey/leave strapped into a car seat. Then try doing it again when you leave your destination. If you’re feeling really masochistic, then follow through with your desperate promise to stop for a treat (snack/coffee for mom at Starbucks) and go through it all again when it’s time to head home.
So many tears. From both of us (almost… I didn’t actually cry but I wanted to).
It’s enough to make me question whether I really want to be home instead of at work.
OK, I know I do want to be home and it is a huge blessing…
But some days are just a struggle. I guess that’s just parenthood/life in general.
It would be hard if I were working full time. It would be hard if I were home full time. It’s hard when I’m somewhere in the middle.
It’s all a reminder to rely on God. In my frustration I forget that He’s in control, that He’s bigger than me and that these two are His beautiful creation. And we have so many more lovely moments than tough ones!
Being a mom is a humbling experience.
On a practical note, though, anyone have advice for getting kids to cooperate when getting in the car? Is this a universal two-year-old thing or am I just lucky?